Noah Knows It All

Life of a Momager: Frequently Asked Questions

Noah Knows It All
Guido Venitucci Photography

Featured image by Victor Monterrozza.

I know, I know… I am all over the place. I am trying to be a MothER, BlogER, Fitness MotivatorPhotographER and now MomagER. If there is ANYthing I have learned since becoming a mom is that I can’t have it all and I certainly can’t do it all either. I was silly to even try. LOL But what I can do is prioritize what I have been blessed with. I have transferable skills, a flexible schedule, a financially supportive husband and really special kid – with a lot of energy.

So right now I am working on building Noah’s future. I get a lot of questions about what that means so here are some answers:

Is Noah a Child Actor or Child Model?

He is both. It’s funny because people always tell me I should get him into the business but he already is. Just because you don’t see the work of children, it doesn’t mean they haven’t worked. A lot of times more than one kid is booked for the same job and then they go with the best. Noah has actually been booked for three gigs this year in both print and film. His first job was for a very well-known children’s toy company but nothing he has done has been released yet. There is no guarantee his work will see the light of day either. And from what I understand, they don’t always tell you. Sometimes people find before you do LOL. That’s the nature of this business. Noah has been with a Talent Management company for over two years and was recently picked up by a Talent Agency as well. He has a social media account but it was never my intention for him to be an internet star. I actually have a legit fear of him becoming a meme. I would hate that! Noah just wants to make people laugh on TV. His social media accounts are just a way for us to share is personality to a wider audience. We are working on getting him the right amount of exposure as we build a savings for his future in the process.

Why don’t you get Noah on The Ellen Show?

If I had a dollar for everyone who said this to me…lol. It’s just not that simple. Trust me… If he could be on any of these TV shows he would be. His management company has plenty of kids that have been on similar shows. It’s just a matter of time and opportunity. But if you have an Ellen Show connect – put in a good word for us! 😛

How did you get involved in the industry?

In 2014, I knew someone who had their child in the business and she recommended Noah without me even asking. The manager liked what she saw and the rest was history. He was actually “dropped” briefly because I simply wasn’t committed to the process. After people constantly saying he needs to be on TV, I realized that this could be his calling. Now we are in it to win it and I am not secretive about his affiliations either. You can find all of that information if you follow his page. Now this might sound strange but I haven’t met his team. I’m also not allowed to go into his auditions. The usually last 5-10 tops! All I know is that his team makes the appointments and we show up. If he gets a job, he works and then he gets paid within 60 days. That’s it. Everything moves so quickly with very little feedback.

How has acting affected Noah with school?

Due to the distance for auditions, we have missed a few days already… plus we have been late dragging ourselves to school in the morning after a long drive. Thankfully Noah is ahead of the learning curve so he’s on target with his academic requirements. Next year I won’t be as willing to miss school. I am actually feeling very guilty about his attendance because I can count the amount of times I’ve missed school in my entire academic career. I even received an award from the department of education for it.

Do you have any advice for getting into the business?

I would say that you have to be 110% dedicated to this. Everyone isn’t going to be discovered on the street, YouTube or on Instagram. To be a Momager, you have to invest into your child’s talents, constantly develop their skills and go to every audition you can. Most of my auditions have been with less than 24 hour notice. I am not exaggerating. I have pulled Noah out of school for a few hours notice before. Flexibility is KEY so would not recommend pursuing this career if you can’t travel. There are plenty of auditions in NY but sometimes the actual job is in LA. You need to be available for the call times, call backs, fittings and the actual shoot. Can you?

I couldn’t do it. How do you handle being a Momager?

Lots of snacks, electronics, and treats. The only reason it has worked for me living so far away is because I am not really working and my husband is financing it all. Many people wonder why we just don’t find work in the DMV. I would love that but there really isn’t a big market for his age out here that I’ve seen. However, I still see the light at the end of the tunnel. I haven’t always lived to my potential so I refuse to hold my son back from his. I will do whatever it takes for my family to win. I normally drive to auditions because I have a little more control of my commute but lately…  I have been wanting to just relax on the bus or train. That doesn’t really work for half school days. Just last week I was on the bus before 1pm that was scheduled to arrive in NY at 5pm and we didn’t make it until 6:45 because of stops and traffic. I was stressed out because our appointment was for 7pm. Noah was the last kid to make it in the room before the doors closed at 7:05. He didn’t do well either because he’s only 5 and didn’t have a second to decompress and prepare. Then on the way home I received an email from a company that wants to meet him this week… IN NEW YORK! Where else?

Would you move back up North?

This is exactly where the prioritizing I mentioned earlier comes into play. I realized that I can’t play this acting game the way I have been much longer. Crazy that I waited 5 years to have the freedom to spread my wings but everything is still all about Noah. What can I say… I am a mom. That’s what we do. But the good news his that his potential motivates me. It has taken me a while to figure out what is important to me… my strengths… my needs. It all got lost over time trying to be and do everything at once. I was going into a depressive state with just the thought of it all. I feel like my endeavors have had the potential to be successful but I never had a chance to give 100 percent to any of it. Although I am not letting go of my projects, in 2018 you WILL see where my priorities lie.  I had great hopes for this blog… I still do. While it may seem to be doing rather well, it has not been living up to my expectations. (That’s for another day). For now, the Momager life is taking time away from this space… at least until I get a laptop. It’s been rough… I am currently at the library writing this blog.

So what am I saying?

I am saying that the direction my life is going is being lead by a potential career in the entertainment industry for my son. I am actually more of a chauffeur than a Momager lol but I am sure you get it. I still feel like I am all over the place but I am really trying to make my way in this world like everyone else. So please bear with me and support me if you can. I am gonna need it. But for this to be our first year in the industry, I think it went well. It’s exciting but scary at the same time. The frequent trips to NY and money spent investing has NOT been easy on my family. And it clearly takes away from anything else I want to do. However, I refuse to miss another opportunity and regret it. Right now we are making it work 270 miles away from it all. But where there is a will, there is a way, right? Stay tuned…

Here’s a look back at Noah’s shenanigans this year. Don’t forget to follow. like. comment. and share! 🙂 Catch him on Instagram, Facebook, Youtube and Twitter!

Teeth Whitening for a Smile Brilliant Birthday + Giveaway [CLOSED]

Disclaimer: The following post has been sponsored by Smile Brilliant which includes affiliate links. I have received a complimentary at-home teeth whitening kit in exchange for sharing my experience on the blog. All comments and opinions are my own. 

I never had pearly white teeth. I actually don’t think I really cared about it until I became an adult. But nowadays I have been spending a lot of time in front of the camera. This has cause me to be come self-conscious of my appearance including my no-so-white smile. Last year I gave an over-the-counter brand a try. Not much luck. The strips would slip and I experienced immediate sensitivity on my gums. But recently I was offered a chance to whiten my teeth at home again with Smile Brilliant. I was comfortable this time because I received desensitizing gel and customized teeth whitening trays. It definitely felt like a more professional experience.

Getting Started with Smile Brilliant:

My complimentary T6 Sensitive System which included 6 Whitening Gels, 6 De-sensitizing Gels, 3 Base Pastes and 3 Catalyst Pastes to create my smile mold. Here is a video what my kit looked like:

I was glad Smile Brilliant includes extra ingredients for your mold in case you make a mistake. Because I absolutely made the mistake of not moving fast enough before the mold hardened. When the base and are mixed, the material is kind of like  a fast-acting “Playdoh”. I would recommend rolling the “doh” narrow in the palm of your hands before placing in the tray. It fit perfectly in my tray the second time around and I created the perfect impression. Within a week of sending my mold to the lab, received my customized trays and was ready to roll.

The Teeth Whitening Process:

The application was super easy and cleaning the trays were as well. I am gonna lie, I saw results by the second day. The desensitizing gel helped a lot too. I didn’t have burns  immediately after like before but three days in a row was my limit. Therefore I had to take one to two-day breaks in between application. I played it safe and only left my trays in for the minimum time of 45 minutes. I would normally popped them in right before watching my favorite reality TV shows at night. It makes the time move by so fast.

So in total, I had 15 applications over the course of 3 1/2 weeks. And here are my results:

Teeth Whitening Before and After

I would be lying if said I wasn’t expecting paper-white teeth lol but it definitely worked! Even my husband agreed and he’s a harsh critic. As you can see, my color is more even and a few shades whiter than before. I am sure the breaks in the process affected more dramatic results but I wasn’t willing to sacrifice my gums for white teeth. That would be crazy.

This process was strategically done in November so that I could #smilefearlessly before my 34th birthday. I had a chance to show of my smile in New York for dinner with my girlfriends and at The Great Xscape Tour with my husband the weekend after.

Do you want a give professional in-home teeth whitening a try? Smile Brilliant is giving one lucky Off The Potomac reader $139 Smile Brilliant credit towards their system of choice.  This giveaway is open for 7 days to USA, UK, Australia and Canadian residents only.

TO ENTER THE GIVEAWAY CLICK HERE

I will announce the winner on Facebook on December 8th, 2017. Can’t wait? Just use code offthepotomac10 to receive 10% off your purchase.

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A·MAZE·D Port Discovery

Your Kids Will Be A·MAZE·D at Port Discovery + Giveaway (CLOSED)

Last week, Port Discovery Children’s Museum opened A·MAZE·D: The Puzzling World of Dave Phillips. 

In this new exhibit, you and your kid will be challenged as you explore giant indoor mazes. Navigate your way through a life-sized cardboard box maze and jump from dot to dot in Hop Dots…

Run! Jump! Celebrate! There’s family fun time ahead! Join us to make festive art projects, dance off Thanksgiving…

Posted by Port Discovery Children’s Museum on Saturday, November 25, 2017

Using logic, math and problem-solving skills you should be a maze master once you’re done! You will even Learn about the history of mazes and labyrinths, see original maze art, and much more.

Admission to the exhibit is free with Museum entry. $15.95 per person for individuals two and older. Members and children under two are admitted for free.

So do you want to get lost for a day? Port discovery is giving away a set of 4 tickets to THREE lucky Off The Potomac readers. ENTER NOW!

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Winner will be announced on Facebook THIS FRIDAY – December, 1st 2017

For more information on the exhibit CLICK HERE!

Crab Egg Benedict

Is Brunch at Founding Farmers Worth the Hype?

The rumors are true. I have been living in D.C. for nine years and just went to Founding Farmers for the first time yesterday. Don’t judge me. That is why I started this blog. Because it is time for me to really get to know all of DMV’s treasures. Founding Farmers has become chain with locations in D.C., Maryland and Virginia. The restaurant is both owned and supplied by American family farmers – serving food made from scratch.

Founding Farmers DC

I am so glad I went with someone who knew to make reservations a week in advance. If it were up to me, I would have showed up to the restaurant the day of and waited an hour for a table. Despite the heavy crowd, we were seated within five minutes of checking in and the service following was prompt.

Beignets Founding Farmers
Uncle Buck’s Beignets w/ chocolate, raspberry & caramel sauces

With 10,000 reviews on yelp, I had very high expectations of this place. For some reason, I expected (even their brunch) to have unique flavors but I didn’t get that exactly. However, I wasn’t disappointed because they have some classic GOOD FOOD here. It seems like one of those places where you bring out-of-towners because you know everything will be good. The funny thing is that I have recommended Founding Farmers several times before – simply because I see my friends going here all the time. LOL

We started off with the Beignets and it was PERFECTION. Crispy on the outside, soft and warm on the inside. The three sauces were truly the “icing on the cake”. I ate three. 😛

Breakfast Chicken & Waffles

Chicken and Waffles
with scrambled eggs and white gravy

This is my go-to brunch dish so it comes to no surprise that this is also a Farmhouse Favorite. I never use the gravy though. The Waffles were perfect and the chicken (tenders) had a little kick to it. My only complaint was that my chicken wasn’t as hot as the rest of the dish but I let it side on account of everything else being so good. Plus I was hungry. 😛

Pimm’s Cup

Pimms Cup
Pimm’s no. 1, beefeater gin, curaçao, lime, house ginger beer

This was my drink because I loooove ginger beer. And it wasn’t watered down either. You can taste the liquor. Lol

Bellini

Bellini
13 puréed white peaches, cava, peach cordial

Crab Benedict

Crab Egg Benedict

Some serious food porn right? I secretly wish I would have gotten this dish instead. This was my friend’s plate.

Overall… Brunch at Founding Farmers was definitely worth the hype but not the wait for walk-ins in my opinion. I personally wouldn’t want to wait that long for breakfast. But people do. SO MAKE A RESERVATION and ENJOY! Next I will have to try dinner at one of their sister locations: Farmers and Distillers. I hear that place is even better! 😉

Have you been to any of the Founding Farmers locations in the DMV?

Bang Theory Salon

Enjoi lux Presents: Short Hair Don’t Care – A Runway Tour

I have been team short hair for most of my life. By choice. I made my first big chop in 6th grade to look like T-Boz of TLC and it has been hard ever since to keep my length. When I finally had the patience to go through the “between stage”, I made the mistake of letting a Dominican salon blow out destroy my hair.  So I walking into a barbershop and cut the whole thing off. I honestly can’t recall feeling so free or feminine before. Cutting my hair super shot was the best decision I ever made for my look and confidence. It made me wonder why I ever grew it out to begin with. But anyway… I have been looking for some inspirations for my next look. So when I saw the flyer for Short Hair Don’t Care I just bought my ticket and went solo. This was an intimate event in Dupont Circle which I really appreciated. The space was enough to move around but small enough to enjoy all the vendors and make solid connections.

EnjoiLux Short Hair Don't Care Runway Tour
Distressed clothes by Latoya Doyley

Each guest received a small gift bag with hair care samples upon entry. Before the show started, there was time for us to shop while enjoying small bites and wine. Unlimited wine I might add… courtesy of The Graffiti Wine Company.

The Graffiti Wine Company

My favorite vendor was Khadija of Henna Sooq who makes all of her own natural and organic henna products. I had her do a design for me on the spot. You can check it out on my Instagram page.

Henna Sooq

Everything you see was organized by the event planning duo Enjoi Lux. I don’t know if it was intentional, but loved how they wore coordinated outfits. This shows me that these two are in sync… a true partnership. I believe their Runway Tour has been to both to Boston and Philly with DC being their last stop.

Enjoi Lux
Co-Founders of Enjoi Lux: Alaina Reid and Deborah Polidore

My favorite part of the show was seeing Christol Salon and Spa grace the runway. My cousin put me on to this salon years ago and I have yet to find the time or the funds to get in Christol’s chair. It needs to happen one day though. Christol is well-known for her coloring skills. And I know a stylist or two who have learned from her classes. The work speaks for itself!

Christol Salon Spa

Every good event has an awesome headliner. Who better to host this event other than Tahira Joy Wright? She is the Co-Founder of The Cut Life. If you are on Instagram and love short hair cut but haven’t heard about this brand, then you have been living under a rock. The Cut Life is THE place I go to for inspiration from people who rock best hair cuts and the stylists who hooked them up. VIP guests had a one-on one with Tahira before the show. I did not attend but she of course opened and closed the show.  It was nice to see another black woman who has dominated a platform – creating brand awareness… not just for herself, but many others.

Tahira Joy Wright

Last but not least was the giveaway. Upon entry we are also given a raffle ticket. A few lucky attendees went home with a little something extra. Happy they were…

EnjoiLux Short Hair Don't Care DC

Do you like to express yourself with a good cut or color? Is there a stylist whose hands you would love to touch your hair? Let me know!

live sacred dc

34 Days of Self-Care Inspired by Live Sacred DC

Right around the time I felt my rut coming on, a fellow local blogger, Chelsea announced that she was hosting an intimate event called Live Sacred DC. It was held at Take Care Shop in Georgetown. The name alone drew me in but the space was perfect. A Take Care shop, you can find plant-based goods for hair, skin, body and home. The decor here is very simple with lots of natural elements and scents to compliment the products sold.

take care shop dc

When you think of the word sacred, you think pure and divine. These are words that should be associated with self-care. Because at our most pure self, we will find peace and happiness. Live Sacred DC was held on the last day of the summer to literally and figuratively start off a “new season” with intent and a conscious mind. We did exercises together prompted by The Happiness Planner. I am horrible at using planners but something really intrigues me about this one. I was fully committed to the handouts. So much that I can honestly say I became more aware of who I am because I had to fill in the “blanks”. We were encouraged to share what we wrote out loud with the group. I was totally comfortable with that because what happened at Live Sacred DC, stayed at Live Sacred DC. I felt like putting things out in the universe made it official. Like sending out positive vibrations because as they say…”ask and you shall receive”.

Live Sacred DC

A lot of us talk about self-care but aren’t embracing the things that keep us healthy and grounded on a consistent basis. Self/care isn’t just a one-time thing that you do. There are a lot of distractions and challenges in life. Naturally, we will be evolving and adapting to the changes and obstacles that come our way. Therefore, our work on staying pure and keeping our peace needs to happen for the rest of our lives. So in the spirit of putting things out in the universe, I am sharing my mission to reboot myself for the next 34 days. I will be refocusing on getting my mind, body and soul right as I turn 34. 

Happiness Planner Happiness Box

I left this event realizing that I can not take proper care of myself if I don’t know and accept who I am. It is only through self-respect and appreciation that I can live sacredly. We ultimately neglect ourselves if we live to please others. But we can not be better for others if we are not our best selves. So I am committed to being mindful of my actions and doing what truly makes me happy and healthy. As a gift from Live Sacred DC, we received The Happiness Planner “Box of Happiness”. One of the items in this box was a 30-day prompted self-awareness journal. I will be using the exercises to assist my self-care reboot as I journey into my 34th year. Although I will not be sharing every detail of these exercises, I am confident that the prompts will inspire blog posts and actions to come. So stay tuned…

In addition to the journal, I will be going back to morning meditations, healthier eating, and a new fitness routine. My goal is for this to be an #OperationSnapBack like never before! Once this 34 day project comes to an end, I will be sure to share my experience here with you all. 

Special thanks to Chelsea and Joanna for hosting the event. Word on the street is that there will be more. Keep your eyes open for it HERE.

Would you consider yourself to be self-aware? What are some of the things you practice as a part of your own self-care?

#metoo

Me Too

“Me Too.”

This status as been seen all over Facebook for the last couple of days from women who have been sexually harassed or assaulted. I posted it myself even though it is a triggering sight to see. But for as long has I can remember I have been triggered.

In person. Online. At work. At school. On the way home. In my home.

Sexual assault and harassment has never been OK but it has always been normal for me. Being born and raised in NYC, getting “Hollered at” is embedded in our culture. Young women are groomed early on to look for ways to prevent and deal with being sexually harassed. As a defense mechanism, friends and I turned to humor by trying to reverse the roles as teenagers. We would sit on a stoop and yell out “Yo shorty in the _______” to the boys that would walk by or ride pass on their bikes. They were always shocked but never offended because it was cool. But imagine having to go through this every day. I live in the suburbs now so driving has shielded me from uncomfortable situations. But for an urban woman who may have to walk a lot, avoiding certain times, blocks, groups of people, clothing and wearing earphones are all things we have to do just to be left alone. What is worse than that?

Saying NO.

I tend to laugh at my a pain because no one, other than women seem to care. Just last week I found sick humor in this meme with a friend.

 

In hindsight, this isn’t funny. The meme actually shows just how serious this issue is for women. Why is walking pass a group of men considered a dare?

Because some of them have no respect or self-control.

One Summer, when I was 14, I was walking down Franklin Avenue in Brooklyn with my friend after work. As we passed a few guys by the corner store, my friend was “hollered at” pretty rudely. She ignored this behavior but “the calls” were so distracting that I made contact with one of the guys. To which he said: ” I know you heard me if your friend did”. As a consequence, the guy proceeded to wet us down with a “Super Soaker” water gun and his friends laughed. Then my friend and I had to ride the train home wet all because we chose not to entertain this behavior. This was only one of the many violations I have experienced in my life. One that will stick with me forever.

Being shot by a water gun was extreme. In my opinion, more extreme than being called an “ugly bitch” or saying “That’s why your friend looks better than you anyway”. These are ever day responses when things don’t go a sexual offender’s way.  It honestly seems like no response (other than the one they want) is ever enough. Even making a conscious effort to tip-toe around a delicate male ego works because being pretend gay or spoken for is just as bad as being uninterested. These men want to “be your friend” anyway.

A H.S. friend of mine, Tabitha made an interesting statement on my status today:

On the other hand I will say that this whole thing is kind of triggering me. I wish we didn’t have to re-label ourselves for people to understand the scale of the issue (that, really tho, if we don’t know the scale of the issue by now I’m like…???) and I wish we didn’t have to create direct relations with the issue in order to to activate humanity in people. We talk about how many women have been assaulted but not how many men assault. I’d really much rather continuing the call out of the offenders and holding them accountable.”

This same friend had an incident just recently with a man taking pictures of her on the subway. Instead of coming to her defense, she was advised by another man to “just move”. Somehow in our society it is always our fault. Thee disgusting situations are seen as something women have control over when it’s simply and issue of self-control on the offenders behalf.

Shortly after, an old friend inboxed me to remind me of the time I asked him to stay by my side so that our co-worker would leave me alone. It was my first permanent job out of college so I wasn’t trying to make this a “thing”.  I can’t remember exactly what this man use to say to me but I vividly remember being uncomfortable. His name still gives me the creeps. He always hovered over my cubical in the morning…and we were far from friends. But the fact that I had to be reminded of this experience goes to show you how often this happens to me. I normally just block it out until the next incident.

Although I was quiet my work encounter, I have been vocal everywhere else. However there is still little accountability when the offenders are people we know and trusted. Our society has a habit of turning a blind eye. Not me. I speak up and have sacrificed many relationships in doing so. I will gladly be the enemy when it comes to protecting my peace.

Now as a mother of a young boy, I am working on getting him to understand personal space, how to deal with rejection from his peers and certainly how to treat young girls. I refuse to have my son grow up to be the reason another woman says “Me too”.

And no… there will be NO SLEEPOVERS allowed. Me and mine will see you tomorrow.

There are just too many of y’all are walking around with issues that have been excused and unaddressed.

Click HERE to see how this all started.

One Step Forward, Two Steps Back

I have a friend who sends me jobs. Out of every 7 jobs, I would only follow-up on maybe one. Mostly because they were low-paying or far commutes… But being sent jobs was a constant reminder of my failed career. I have been through two layoffs (one 9 months pregnant) and several dead-end temp jobs – all while applying to hundreds of jobs with no call backs. That did something to me. It changed me. I simply had one too many rejection letters to believe in myself anymore.

So I put a lot more time into blogging. But as an influencer, you are on social media a lot. It can be fun but to an already bruised ego, I was watching all of my friends celebrate their promotions as I sat at home, feeling like a college reject with 50k of debt that her husband pays for. So eventually I stopped looking for work as a defense mechanism. I told everyone I was committed to being a Stay At Home Mom but truthfully I was just tired. Tired of the rejection, tired of answering “how is the job search going?” and tired of unsolicited advice. But that didn’t stop people from telling me how “lucky” I was to be home with my “baby”. If that wasn’t enough, my husband got all the praise in the world for “taking care” of me… as if I was a burden. As if wasn’t taking care of my son. As if I never took care of us. As if I didn’t sacrifice for my family and my husband’s demanding career. Don’t get me wrong, my son brings me joy but just being his mom was never enough. I know I said it was, but it wasn’t. It is a thankless and exhausting job without pay. And can’t even put it on my resume… a resume that desperately needs an update.

You hear me talking a lot about finding balance, self care, doing yoga and getting away. Unfortunately none of my practices ever had a lasting effect on me. Unlike the average mom, my self care requires much more than a pedicure and a few inspirational memes. I have been suffering with anxiety and depression for some time now. I remember in 2015 crying became normal for me… so normal that I would cry in public at the drop of a dime. I knew it was bad when my husband stopped asking me what was wrong. 

I never had an answer anyway.
People often assume that I am this overly confident person but I am fighting self-doubt every. single. day. I hesitate on doing the simplest of things. I have this fear of failing and wasting my time which has made me extremely fragile. So no matter how many people tell me that I am talented, it doesn’t add up. I don’t have much to show for it. I can’t get hired for it and I can barely make money from it. I know that words are powerful but so are thoughts. So even if I never said this out loud, this is what is in my head. As a result, I find myself taking one step forward and two steps back. When your anxiety physically stops you and your depression mentally stops you… you can’t make muchprogress.

For instance… I was given a lead on a job two weeks ago. I took days to even print the application that was sent to me. My mind told me this was going to be a waste of time. As I began to fill out the form, I remembered how many times I have done THIS before and gotten NOTHING out of it. By the time I made it to the employment history section, I couldn’t relive my unsuccessful past. My chest was getting tight and I started to draw blanks. So I put the pen down and threw the application away.

Today was the deadline.

Safe to say I won’t be getting that job either. The funny thing is I didn’t even want the job. I just need work but I don’t even know what I should be doing anymore. I lost myself.

Everyone tells me that entrepreneurship is my calling but I didn’t even have the guts to apply for one job. How could I have the guts to be an entrepreneur?

To be continued…